I have more questions than answers…
I find myself thinking…wondering…doubting. Today was the Catalina Baptist associational executive board meeting. (For those who don’t know ECC is associated with the SBC in missions) Anyway, the entire process though comical, was disgusting to me. I could not help but think what would Jesus think of this mess we call church. You see, you have to understand that I have a long history in the church. My father is a preacher in fact. I experienced church fight after church fight, church split after church split, moving, my father heartbroken and bitter, him finally being able to heal, and then moving again. Now today my father kinda looks down at me for the same reason that he would get into trouble when he was young, doing things differently! I wonder if I will be the same way when I am older? Anyway the clash between old and new is growing more and more. It was so crystal clear this morning, old clashing with new, and I was wondering where is Jesus in all of this madness? When are we going to figure out that Jesus was not a part of the SBC, or a Republican? I’ll be the first to admit I am not the perfect follow of Christ so I am speaking from a low position here. Somewhere along the way though I feel we have lost our way. At some point the church became an institution, a thought process I find myself having trouble breaking free from. I guess the questions I have been wrestling with are; what does Jesus think of Denominations? What does Jesus think of “the churches” in America? What does Jesus think about ECC? What does Jesus think about me? I hope He sees a man trying his best to follow Him. I hope the world sees a Christ-follower, a fallen man, a man who is perfect by no means, but a man who has been saved by grace, and is doing his best to walk and talk with Jesus.